Monday, July 13, 2009

Precious just send me a super nice & touching song which makes me gona cry soon :( idk why.

cried before i go to my bed, this was my ever first time cry alone inside the room, nobody at home i cry non-stop, not in a v.good mood when go to schl, notice me today? I din even laugh real loud & so happy like the past. School was fine, manage to study a lil, i notice that today when teacher was teaching i keep day dream, & idk why too :( Teacher caught my piercing today, she force me take out, thanks belle help me poke another hole, not pain at all, because the most painful place was my heart, not eyebrown. No matter how hurtful it is my heart was still th most painful part :'(

Bi susprise me outside my school, why i saw him i got no feeling at all, He keep make me smile but he failed to, i even shouted at th bus at him, walk around northpoint i all the way ignore him, i can see how sad he is, i was about to cry, but im dead, i dont have feeling too, he send me home he hug me real tight, he clean my sweat for me, he carry my bag, he buy those sweet i always eat give me, but i dont have feeling too, im crying now, im lost :( i cried really out loud, but why nobody could sense im crying? :( my heart real pain, he text me " Bi, i still v.love you don't like that can? I'll sad & heartpain de" i ignore his text, what am Joleen,T doing?

reach home, saw what mummy wrote to me, i guai lan her back, im speechless, idk what to do, tomorrow having so many text yet i dont have th mood to study too :(

nobody gona understand how i feel now, real heartpain, & im sorry Bi, :( seriously sorry.

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